Night time. It's boring. Day 2 of the holidays. I'm already feeling bored. I'm left with $10 from where I earned yesterday which was $32. Mother took it. Some of it I spend. Haish. However, I had fun yesterday. Me, Syahmi and Fidz working together. Washing dishes. Its not a wedding. I'm sorry. Majlis Sunat. Haaha. My bad. It is hard work but fun. We played with water. There is 1 adult helping us also. Yeah. He's funny. Harharhar. The food there was great too. Delicious. Brought home some of it. Go home take lorry. Fun beh. They so good send us home. Ahhh... Stopped in front of the mosque. Take payment from "Boss". The money they gave was just 1 big Hundred dollar note. So need give it evenly. So, I received $32. Haha. Take bus after that. Sheesh. "Boss" house near school. My house far from there. Returned home. Put food on table. Straight away went to sleep.

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Today woke up at 11+. Tired mah. I got bored. So, I put on my headphones and listened to some music in my mother's room. Until... 5pm. Haha. Switch on TV. Watch Chinese drama. Nothing else to watch siaa. 7pm watch channel 5. Click Five live in Cambodia. Haha. 7.30pm watch Camp Rock. 8.45pm turn on laptop. Blek. Besides, I watched Camp Rock many times before at my cousin's house. Currently, only my sister's at home. There is nothing to do now. Maybe I'll watch YouTube. What other choises do I have? Haish. Next week gonna watch movie with Syahmi. Next week cause currently, no money. Haaha. Mother is gonna get salary next week anyways. Hahaha. Can't wait really. I'll stop here. Keep rocking guys! ily dear someone. Sorry. I don't know your name. Bye.

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Oh, hey, ya. STILL alone at home. house so quiet. I'm getting scared right now. Been staring at the screen for too long. My eyes are getting square and my head is spinning. My pet cat not entertaining me. It is asleep for hours. Damn it. I'm bored. I'm sad. I'm alone. I'm feeling cold. Wish I had the guts to pick up the phone and call somebody to entertain me. It is too quiet. Nobody can call me nor msg me. My phone service is really DEAD. It will remain as silent as it is until my mother pay the full amount. Which is on 8 June. Woah. My B'Day is on 15 June. I can't wait baby! But I know what I'll get from my parents. Money. $$$. Even my aunts give me $$$. But I spend the money too quickly. I'm just not a money-saver. When I see money, I'll spend it. If you give me $1000 today, I can spend it all in a few hours. But today, I managed to save $1+++. What an achievement for me! Congrats to myself! I did it! I saved more than a dollar! But sad to say, it will be gone soon. If you know what I mean. Still alone. Still bored. Still sad. Still feeling cold. There is nothing I can do. Just now I sang songs damn loudly. And I took a video of myself. Eeeyyerrr. I suck. Blek. But the songs rock. I can't sleep. Tomorrow need wake up at 7.45am. Go school help out. Then need help out at wedding also. Many things to do tomorrow ya? It is all very tiring. And frustrating. I wonder what is gonna happen to the $30 I will get tomorrow. All spent in 1 day? Maybe. I'll try saving abit. Give some to my mother. If not, starve to death. Choi. I don't mean that. It is now 10.40. Still alone. How could they do this to me? I want to call somebody. But I think it will feel awkward. I normally don't talk to people. I text them. I will feel uncomfortable if people start talking to me on the phone or face-to-face. I tell you it will definitely feel awkward. Nothing to do now. I won't stop typing here. This is just to entertain myself. Ily whoever you are. I don't know your name though. Haha. I should stop liking girls already. I'm tired of making a fool out of myself. Blek. Suck ass. I'm a big fucking JERK. I'm a big fucking SHOWOFF. I'm get emotional too fucking easily. I'm getting too proud of my fucking self. These are my characteristics. I know I'm like this. I'm a fool. It is hard to change. Or maybe I should just be myself. I'm scared I'll hurt people's feelings. Damn it. I'm lame. I'm pathetic. I suck to the core baby! I'm a bit sensitive. I'm unfair. You hit me once I'll hit you thrice. I can insult you but you can't insult me. That is how I act in front of my friends. I'm scared it will make them pissed. I'm starting to get pissed about myself too. I should change. But I don't how to. Somebody help me. They say I'm a good-hearted person. Well, the boys don't say that. The girls in my class do. Some of em'. That, I thank you for complimenting me. I tried. I just want to make people happy. That is all I ever wanted to do. I treasure my friendship. I hate losing a friend. It is like losing a life. It hurts. My neck hurts. It is aching like hell. 10.55. Going to 11.00. Yet, I'm still alone. My longest post ever written. I feel tired. My cat just woke up. I think it is hungry. You know what? I'm hungry too. Someone is at the door. I think it is mom. Yay! Someone is home. At last! Alright, I'll stop here. Goodnight.

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hey.. ho... wadevr.. school finally over. hah. tmr at least dun nid go PTM. but i going to help out at sch. hee. tmr oso need help at wedding. wash dishes only mahh. going wit syahmi. they pay us $30. haha. yay. i'll do anything for money. need take mrt to Yishun. but when go home take lorry. hoorayy!! 11am - 9pm siaa. Nvm..

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Arrived at sch at around 6.45am. go out school buy Tobleron. Ate all of it in 5mins. Thank God no stomachache. Amani blanja me $2. hoho. thx ya!! last day of sch. planned to stay back till very late. recess we acted like kids. haha. play catching. (: . Jumaat can still buy drinks. sempat eh Jum? at last he kana caught by Darren. my team won! hoho! blek. pish. stop. during science we watched Spider-Mam 3. haha. while i do my corrections. sheesh. after cleaning the class,, we go decorate our own mahjong papers to put on our tables. haha. wanted to use red to paint but Shahirah go use all of it. sheesh! neyh mind,, i used green and black. not nice loh. my decoration lyke shiiitt. my hands were all black. haha.

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after sch,, play soccerr. haha. oops. nvr go mosque. sori sori!! besides,, my hand too dirty. :S . sori sori. ahh!! anihoo,,, we used the boy brigade's soccer ball. aaron ask us to use it. we like heck care larrhh. play play. Darren blanja me $1. come bak sch, saw them ramming the ball. so, i played. woo! i rock at goalkeeping. i beat Darren with score 2-1. we stand behind the line to shoot larrhhs. i keep ramming the ball. at last we play tag team. I with Haikal. Amirul with Fikal. We each ram at each other. Damn fun! I saved the ball many times! I'm so happy. (: . I and Haikal won. score is 5-3. I had the last goal. Fikal was like.. Dono lahh. He don like to lose thats all. Haikal was whispering " Eh, asl ngan dier ah?" syahmi was like "Dono". next team, syahmi and Darren. hoho. we won but we let Fikal and Amirul play next. I go canteen buy water. we play passing next. Fun lahh.. then play who can juggle the ball the most. Fikal won lahh. he too good liao ahhs. Sumthing funny happened oso when we were playing passing. haha. girls in St. John room was laughing like hell. oh well,, we rest awhile then play match. 3v3. (: . alrite,, my team lost. but hey,, nvr kana thrashing. (: . others rested, Darren and I went home together. before that, he blanja me again. he so nice. (: . walk walk walk, then rest at bus stop awhile. talking bout sumting. expressing our feelings. haha. not to each other lahh. you know,, problems. pish. shut up Hakim! reach MRT station say bye bye to each other. walk home alone.

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Currently alone at home right now. other dono go where. haishh. must you guys leave my alone at home every Friday?? I get scared too you know.. Nvm. at least got something to eat. balaalala. im bored. well, that's all. bye bye. tc guys! you rock! Yes! I learned to use photobucket. :l .

Labels: freedom at last

hmm... read my two sister's blog. its sad. why are we falling apart? we were a happy family. now not anymore. is it because of you dad? is it because of you that we have become like this? most of us hate you now. you and mum fought in the morning? why must you do this? you broke our happiness. you made us suffer. you are just a JERK. JJJEEEERRRRKKKK!!! i just thought we could be a happy family til' the end. now, the dream has vanished.

Labels: how did it come to this?

just came home from Singapore National Museum. dam tired. Guan Ting keep pushing me to the side in the bus. knock my head, arm, shoulder... everywhere lah! f*** you lah Guan Ting! reach home. nobody in. no food to eat also. damn hungry. mother just came home. thank god! I failed my art for the second time. 1 last yr mid-year and 1 this yr mid-year. wow. saturday no need meet the parents for me! hooray! but helping at school during meet the parents lahh. cher ask me if im free. i say im always free. cher ask what time i can come. i say anytime. haha. wow. stomach cant take it. too hungryy. Hope you enjoyed the chocolates Shahirah! (: . beh, tmr also need buy chocs fer Aedit n Iffah. Hmmph. Aedit jealous cos I give Shahirah. haha. Tmr I sure for you lah eh Aedit. blek. Iffah i'll buy for you on Friday. :l . bye bye. im tired. tc guys!

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ITS A SUNDAY! the most boring day for me. there is nothing on tv(i have no starhub cable), phone still cant msg and there is NOTHING to do on this laptop. at around 11+ go aunt house with mum to take nasi lemak. haha. stayed there till.... 1pm? brought home the food and all my siblings started eating. my sister go irritate me. then eveerybodi follow. sheesh. fought with my sister. scream at her CB. mother scold me. :l . syahmi call me and ask me if want go out. of course i said yes. haha. go out also do nothing. sit under the void deck. talk talk, gossip gossip. eeyyerrr. we gossip? GAY ah! he tell me ghost stories. wah. not so scary. theeenn,,, go watch him play basketball. while i was watching some home made vids on my phone. wait. i did not watch him play. sorri. bored liao,, i tell him i want go home. then say bye bye lorrhhss. cycled back home. house is really silent. bro, oldest sis and dad go out. mother and other sis sleeping. hmm.. tomorrow got school. hooray? better than staying at home doing nothing. gonna get my history and art exam scripts. haha. cross my fingers. i wanna pass man! 1 more week till the holidays baby! wow. 1 whole month of boredom for me. blek. i'll stop here for today. tc guys. see ya tmr!!

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GOSH!!! i'll die if i continue on lyke this. CHOI CHOI. ahaha. well, nothing happened today. jus go out play soccer. damn. come home,, mother say if wan eat go aunt's house. AGAIN? oh well. at least wont starve. ate butter cookies and... fried rice. SPICY MAN!!! luv it! now at home. going to be alone in about some minutes time. my mother goin to work soon. and i'll be alone until... 10++? i hope not 11+++. uhh... i'll get scared. hmmph. still feeling hungry.. hmmph,,, thats all. TC guys! bye bye.

Labels: get me out of this boredom

heyy yaa.. at my aunt's house now using my cousin's laptop. come here cos im really really really hungry. yeah. my mother did not cook aniting yaw. haish... haven got my history, literature and art papers. so far i passed all my subjects. i was AGAIN first in english. hahaahaha. try beating me Joshua! blek. jus passed for my mother tounge. my malay not that good. i think i'll fail my art. haha. bored now. as usual. nobody to talk to. blek. hmmph. i wonder what im going to do tmr. get bored to death? maybe. haish,,, nothing fun to do. i'll stop talking now. bye bye and take care. my friends are no. 1!

Labels: wish i could eat fried chickens

yeah,, today got bak me exam papers. i got err,, 77/100 fer me science,, 61/100 fer me geography,, 41/50 fer me maths. thats jus the paper marks. not overall. 0.0 . of course told my mum about my freakin marks. my mother show no feelings. uhh,,, wth?? she onli said bulk up fer me geography. which i will NOT do it. ooo,, mother ask my to eat but i dun wan. soo,,, she fed me rice with fish in gravy. oo,,, like small kid liddat. but realli nice. dun nid muv my hands.. ahhh.... it wuzz ssooo delicious. ahhh... at least i know i wont starve. kicked the soccer ball right into guan ting's face. haha. sori horrr.. accidentally. blek. beh,, bye bye yaww.

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FUCK THIS FUCKING SHIT MAN!! beh,, my fucking phone still cannot msg. CCB!! mum tell me mus pay full amount. my mum pay more than half lorrhss!! sheesh. jerks. pay more than half cannot meh? CCB . miss messaging my awesome two friends. Amani n Shahirah. CCB laahh!! chao ahhh!! exam finish,, can relax relax abit. slack slack. Sorri to Amani ya? even though u are not gonna read this. sori i splashed paint on ur uniform. AHAHA! i'm a jerk. ahaha. play play oni cannot meh?? you still my best bud. HARHARHARHAR! listened to Attack Attack! - Interlude . woah. techno beats. hahaha!

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ooo,,, jus found this skin. this suits me PERFECTLY. i really cant shut up. ahha. now,, cant stop listening to Breathe Carolina - Diamonds. Ahhhh... this song is sssoooo wonderful. addictive song to me. go school listen to this,, go home oso listen to this,, at home ALSO listen to this. OMG! now i really cant shut up. BYE. before i talk some more.

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i wanna pour out my feelings. hmm,, hope this wont gross u out. 0.0 . beh,, long time nvr talk to her. she keep quiet, i keep quiet. it feels.. awkward? i cant talk to anibodi. hmm,, fucking phone still cannot msg. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKK! my room so dark ryte now,, all ignoring me. lerr,, im tearing apart. my life has gone upside down again. im sad. T_T . maybe it will be better after the exams. i hope so. looking forward to the june holidays. wanna buy new phone n watch,, mother wan buy fer me. heehee. (: . thx ya mum! wanna start saving money. buy keyboard(instrument). wan my band to be rockstars! aahhahaaha. oo,, im in a band. thx Haikal! HAHAHAHA. he made me his vocalist. wwaahh. think i can sing? maybe? hmm,, my world is empty. ssooooo empty. it will be better soon. i know it. (: . even though life's unfair. Breathe Carolina rocks!!

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BREATHE CAROLINA!! Kyle Even & David Schmitt


Wooooo!! I luv them!! ahhaha. their music all amazingly damn good.

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Currently i'm alone at home. o.o . breathe carolina rocks!! hmm,,, wonder where all my siblings go. my bro didnt bring his laptop? hah. weiiirrdd. oh well,, at least can use. haha. hmm,, wat happened 2dae.. came 2 school,, assemble at class. yiipee! got ready 4 maths paper 1. quite easy lahh. finished in 35mins. hmm,,, guan ting's soccer ball kana confiscated. sheesh. cnt play socceer. :l . listening compre,,, can do laah. some i tikam tikam. after sch,,, go play soccer at street soccer court. 2e1 soccer ball. (: . too bad it rained. buuhooo. go wm,, walk walk wit kelvin, fikal, hadi, guan ting. syahmi coming ltr. (: . syahmi come,, guan ting , hadi n syahmi go time zone. zzz . i go home lorrhh.. thinking of finishing my art.. but,, lazyy. haiisshh. tmr last day of examination! art paper. booriing. my artistic skills sucks hard! drawing okok lahh. but after i paint it will look dam ugly. ahh,, chao lahh,, go do my art. hmmph. no choice. BUUAAIII.

borredd. soo,, i post anihow. (: . listening to breathe carolina(band).Diamonds(Music title). wooaahhh. this song rocks man!! haha!! cant stop listening to it.

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Hmmm,,, any difference?? i tink its hard 2 seee.

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everiday i pray to God that i will meet you. it seems tat my whole world is empty without you. u are the most special fren tat i ever had. i pray to God tat i will nvr lose u. u are too special to me. u need not b perfect. as long as you are my fren, i am contented. it has been a long time since we talked or text to each other. i always had this thinking, are u angry wit me? i dunno. why did you say tat u are sori? there is nothing to be sori for. it is me who shud b sori. not u. you dont owe me anything. i owe you someting. someting more. so pls, stay close to me. u are the onli person tat i could talk with. you are the onli person tat understands me. you know how i feel. you dont joke about how i felt. instead, you make me feel better. you make me smile i dont want to lose you. ever. i enjoy being close 2 you.

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that doesnt go out to anibody. i jus text it to myself. (: . boys, im not girly okay?? im jus emo. say wadever u wan laahhh.

See that? i just ate that just now.. wahh.. so damn delicious!! its chicken!!! ahhh!!! i so damn luv it!! haahah!!!

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Its gettin dark. haishh. hmmph,, she online. but i shy to talk to her. its been a long time aniways. since the exams started. Iraa ,, Iraa! i shy lahh.. hmmm... i tot she was angry at me. hmm. why would she?? what didido?? hmm. we frens mahh... why b angry? hhaaaiiisshhh.. she's sweet,, nice,, sumtimes crazy(not too crazy),, she's everyting a fren can hav. she is wat i call a true fren. (: . if u are reading this,, U ROCK BEB!!!

Hoorayy 4 me 3rd post! sheesh.. eeyyerr.. my room now veri the dark... almost cant see... ahhrrgghh.. just now literature was..uh.. can do lahhh. finish in 1 hr.. walao.. cant sleep during the paper...!!! anihoo, followed guan ting go buy new soccer ball.. haha. with my other frens as well... 19.90! so cheap!!! hangout at the library. played soccer,, go bak 2 library,, kana scolded for throwing the can drink in the dustbin at inside the library,, WTF sia!! stupid employer!! u cleaner go do ur job lahh!! aaniiwayyss... we dun care lorr... go bak out. play soccer again... wtf... fikal ask us to go bak 2 da library.. all said ok and i was like.... AGAIN??? oh well... but hadi say go to the arcade,, aircon more stronger.. haha. they did. but i didnt go in. i waited outside.. alalla... then,,,, they go bak library.. sheeshhh... i waited outside.. mother called ask me go home coz she cook alreadi.. go in library.. they using the com watch youtube.. soccer vids.. aiyoo... go outside wit syahmi.. go home.. by walking.. nvr bring ez-link card.. muahahahahaha.... when reach home,, my mother found my ez-link card.. it was missing actually... for.. 2 weeks?? nvm... currently blogging away... blablabla. my lovely classmates tagged me.. im so hapi.. HAHAHA!!! im hungry.. but no appetite.. oh ya,, gave my chocolates to shahirah today.. ahaha. duno why,, but,, giv laa... im a good-hearted person yaa??? Tobleron lehhss... i giv her.. haha. a token of gratitude? yeah.. i her fren, she my fren.. yeah.. im happi she is my fren.. long time nvr talk 2 her nor msged her.. haiishhh.. wonder wat she's doin ryte now.. hmmmm.... pish,, i guess... that's it.. enuff talking.. more walking! wadever... tired of typing. BYE my lovely frens!


EEyyeerr.. form cher ask miee go cut my stinkin hair. hmm.. anyone knows a good saloon?? or barber?? hahaha.. i wan a nice haircut. tagg me if u know any. hmmph.

Came to school at... 6.40+. haha. didnt study for the freakin exam.. nvm.. sure can pass!! woahh... science paper damn tough! anyhow tikam tikam. ikot nasib laa... malay paper 2 was... quite easy though.. after school play soccer... go west mall lepak at the library.. yes... almost kene kick out.. hahah. makin far too much noise. buy french fries after that... go play soccer again.. went home with guan ting n fikal.. hahaha.

Bored at home... cant msg people!! ahhh!!! fuck.. pay bill liao ahhs.. still go cut.. waste my mother's money... aiyass... yeah.. wish i could post everydae.. but, but, tis my bro's laptop. he brings to sch every weekdays.. todae lucky coz he go skating.. hahah!!! got time to blog... wooo... got nothing to say areadi.. bye yaw!!! rock on!!

At last!! I'm freakin done with my blog problem!! ahahhaa!! take that! no need help animore.. hahahahhaaa!!! i have done it!!